Well the information I deleted- I had to change the title and summery of this question because I was asked to edit it. The information I deleted was that I left grade school in grade nine, I have moved to many different cities in the same country, for ten years my parents have not- well- not has been sick due to multiple back accidents and back surgies because of injury on the job. My dad had to stay at home and he was still independent even though he could not work, he was rendered very disabled two years ago when all at once he had two heart attacks, brain seizures, a stroke, a month long coma and he had to take a long time to get power back in his limbs. He had to get surgury on his left eye so he could see. The only limb that does not work is his right eye. Even though his left eye works well, he is not totally alert with it.
Two years ago he was at the point where everyone thought he might- he was in the very early stages of stroke recovery and did not move perfectly. My mom and brother could not take care of him and go to the hospital everyday anymore like they had been doing. My mother was torn with the decision of putting him in a home, my brother did not want to take care of him.
I wanted to see daddy, all the time, I thought I would make life easier for everyone by taking care of dad. My dad has bathroom problems during the night, he has weird sleep patterns so I have to stay up 24/7 as much as I can to feed him, cook for him, bathe him and sometimes teach him things. I have to exercise excellent patience because he is not always easy. I love dad but he is like a big man-child. Dad often wakes me up during the night to help him..
Over the past year my brother has called me an ‘lazy girl dog’, complained that I was unemployed, walked around naked just to bother me a lot, ‘yelled at me constantly’, criticized how I spoke, how I should speak, when I was using big words, my vocabulary, when I retaliate, how I speak, my combacks, my laughing, my woes, my subject topics with my mother in the car, my abilities, what I bring up and everything about me quite frequently. My mother is like Sheldon Cooper of the Big Bang Theory and whenever I try to talk to her about my problems regarding my brother she will not hear of it and she freaks out. She will not hear of any problems I have with anyone even though she often uses me as her personal therapist.
A lot is required of me new posters and readers. I have to take care of my dad, the house, be my mom’s personal therapists and sometimes I am- I have to maintain a perfect emotional calmness and if I react to anything I am critized. I often am sarcastic back to my brother, have clever comebacks that annoy him or laugh at him.
I have been taking care of my dad since I was eighteen. I have put a lot of myself into this and taking care of dad. My original intention to take care of dad was to make it easier on the my family including him. My brother is or has not been easy on me. I cannot be my dad’s caretaker and have a job at the same time.
It is just I am not perfect. I cannot be perfectly emotionally strong all the time. I am going to get offended. I do not agree with some said above. My brother has accused me of being a lazy girl dog. I think I work hard, I do a lot for my family and take care of dad. I do not think I am a lazy person or the insult he calls me.
Anyway I like some of the posts above.
Edit: It is not as easy not reacting, my brother does a lot more than- Never mind. I will just reflect on some of the comments that I like, some of them have been thought provoking. Thank you readers.
I wanted suggestions on how to thicken my skin, no one was willing to in- also I found out that telling people to insult you on fluther was self-destructive and not allowed. I am not encouraging such things now.