Downtide is right about how our current culture reacts to boys expressing anything feminine.
The more you can be true to yourself, the happier you will be in life. That’s a general life principle already expressed by previous folks here but it bears repeating.
As you get older, you will figure out how this fits into the rest of your life. Don’t let others tell you who you are or how you should or shouldn’t define yourself.
There are plenty of heterosexual men with cross dressing desires of varying degrees just as there are gay men with the same. Some gay guys have a great time dressing as Drag Queens and some actually get paid for it as performers.
And then there are transsexuals who decide to live full time as the opposite gender from the one assigned to them at birth.
As you can see, your enjoyment of makeup, cross dressing and the like is found in many people of all DIFFERENT types and orientations. In time, you will figure out what this interest of yours means TO YOU.
Don’t let anyone else tell you that it means that you’re gay or transsexual or whatever.
That is for you to discover and decide. Others don’t get a vote. If it really confuses you, you might choose to explore this in the safety and privacy of a therapists office or a support group and allow some supportive and understanding other folks a little input if you feel a need for it.
But how this fits in to your life is your decision and yours alone.
There is no black and white or wrong/right one size fits all answer for your question.
You’ll figure it out more the older you get.
In addition to Eddie Izzard, you can also do a little research on other public figures like RuPaul, Chaz Bono, and Barry Humphries (aka Dame Edna) for a sampling of the vastly wide array of all different people who began quite like you. They realized that they found genuine enjoyment in cross dressing to one degree or another.
Some are gay, some are straight and some are trans. Each of them figured it out as they got older and each of these four individuals (and COUNTLESS other) less famous people lead happy and fulfilling lives enjoying their cross dressing to one degree or another. They remain true to themselves.
And you can do the same. Even tho our current culture is much less accepting of this for boys, it is possible to be safe and emotionally healthy. You just need to be smart about it and avoid potentially dangerous situations and excess ridicule which can mess with a healthy self esteem. Avoid it when possible but stay true to yourself.
You have an interesting journey ahead of you. Whatever else happens, you certainly won’t have a dull and boring life.
And look on the bright side You’ll have at least one night out of every year when you can really pull out all the stops and dress to the nines without fear. It’s pretty much ” anything goes” on that night.
Halloween is just around the corner, baby :). Start planning that outfit now. And make it FABULOUS :)