@ladymia69 You’re new here. Read back a few years when I talk a lot about mental illness and infidelity. My family doesn’t know about these things. If they should happen on this site, I don’t want them finding out about those things. When hiding things, you can’t be too careful. The risk may be small, but it’s there.
Maybe most of us have things that are “nobody’s business” or “boring” to others. So most people don’t talk about it in depth. When I started, I wanted to be able to talk about everything. I was able to do that… for a while, when I was new and had no history here, no people who I didn’t want to disappoint.
It still shouldn’t matter what anyone says about me or to me, since no one knows me. But it does. Maybe if I were to talk about certain things, people wouldn’t get on my case. But I doubt it. If the world were different, and people didn’t judge each other so much, maybe I could show my face. Even then, I don’t think I would like the idea of people judging my looks.
When I had to rely on my looks to create the first impression that people had of me, I did not have all that much attention. When I lead with my words, people seem to get a more positive idea about who I am. If people don’t give me a chance to talk, they tend to overlook me. Very rarely do people try to find out more about me. Here, some people like my words enough to tell me so. That never happens in real life. Well, maybe once.
There’s a group I hang out with—pretty creative people. We usually have a chance to speak to everyone else, for a minute or two, each week. Once someone told me that she always looks forwards to hearing what I have to say. As you can see, that has made a big impression on me. On fluther, it is not such a rare thing, but it happens often enough that I get a bit overwhelmed and sometimes try to talk people out of it. For a person who is not used to that kind of appreciation, actually getting it can be too much, at times.