Have you ever fought ferociously for something you really didn't want?

At one time, my life. I didn’t want to go on, but, I fought it.

@Jude You have one hell of an impressive way of answering. I saw the question and the only thing that came to my mind was when I was a kid we sometimes did stuff out of spite. Then I saw your answer and it really floored me. You’re one tough character. I’m glad I got to know you. Keep fighting.

I’m doing it right now, actually. I’d rather not explain what it is.. but I am literally pushing myself to the limit to achieve something that I don’t even necessarily want. I just know that it is right. That’s all I need to know.

I just did. For 8 years I waffled over the opportunity to buy the company I worked for. The notion of committing to such a substantial amount of money was head spinning and the thought of the responsibilities that came with the purchase made my stomach do flip flops. The worst part was when unexpected events delayed the purchase by 8 weeks and I started having second thoughts about it all. A good friend kept telling me I will do just fine and 2 and ½ weeks into my new ownership I think she was right. ;)

I seem to constantly fight for the love of others but in the end don’t really want it…it’s too complicated… I just want to truly love myself because I feel only I really can accept myself for all I am.