Why yes, Wundayatta – once I was considered a “stud”. Recently actually. I convinced myself and tried to convince my therapist that having several attractive men (and women) at my beck and call was the only way to live.
Then one of my “harem” and I became more like friends and he really told me to look at what I was doing to myself. Lying to myself, thinking that there was some intimacy in this… when we both knew I CRAVED intimacy really, not this rationed-out sex in the disguise of love. He actually had me make a list! A list of all of them, their qualities, how we met, how they ranked. There were 7 or so “regulars” on the list. I think this exercise he presented me with changed me ultimately (in addition to lots of therapy). I could see myself hiding in that list.
They say awareness is key, because I have been seeing a great man who I am monogamous with now. My therapist couldn’t wipe the shit eating grin off her face as she asked me “so…. can you be monogamous with this person?” Of course the answer was yes.
It was easy to be a stud. I never had to deal with emotions or “overnights”.
Having a relationship is much harder, and consequently worth it all.
My friend mentioned above would be tickled to read this
So, to answer your questions:
If so, why do you think people were attracted to you?
Maybe because I didn’t care. Maybe because I felt free… maybe it’s easier for females of this nature because it is so rare. The men dig it. The men dug that they could tell me their stories – their “boring dating lives” and I wasn’t trying to be one of those women. Of course, all the men I attracted were unavailable so that is a completely different tale.
What did you do about it? Did you try to accommodate everyone?
It was a perfectly oiled machine. Their schedules were all different, and I was honest, so there was no issue. Mostly, they never asked about the others. Sometimes, we compared notes. sometimes I saw more than one in a day
Did you turn everyone away except one? How did you handle it?
There was a “main guy” the one who had been around for 8 years or so. He was most definitely a stud. Due to his own activities, there was no consistency in our get-togethers. He was also the least well-behaved.
Surprisingly they all seemed to be glad for me that I found someone I love. Yet, they all kinda said under their breath: “oh, you’ll be back”
we’ll see about that