First of all you have to find out if he’s married (or involved with somebody else) If he is, then you have to walk away. No matter how you feel about him. Don’t dilly dally or hope or pray that he is free. Find out now. Either ask him directly, or ask someone who knows him for real. Don’t speculate, or pine away, or daydream about him. It doesn’t matter if you are shy. Find a way to get the answer to this question as soon as possible. It’s pretty simple. Either you ask him directly, or you have a friend or relative ask him directly, or you find out by doing a little bit of online research. If he is completely free, then you need to find out if he is straight, and then you need to find out whether he is interested in you. Don’t ever use the excuse that you are shy. Find out, somehow, even if you need to get someone to help you.
If you still feel love for him after you have walked away, know that it will take time for your passion to die down. In the meantime you need to do other things that will occupy your mind and your time. If you just sit there and think about him, it will prolong your pain. Never just sit there thinking about him. Occupy your time. Do something else, but do something that is in your best interest and not likely to leave you pining about him.
Do NOT make a scrapbook of his favorite things. Do NOT compile a photo album of pictures of him. Do NOT write romantic stories and poems about him. Do NOT talk to your friends about how wonderful he is. Don’t compare his fabulous traits to other people. Do NOT think about yourself as his partner, love interest, wife or lover.
What do you enjoy doing? Do you have any activities that you are passionate about (painting, photography, hiking, writing, poetry, cooking, comedy, singing)? If not, find some! NOW! Do you have friends or family that you like and love and adore? If so, make a huge effort to spend time with them. NOW! Do you have some things in your life that you’ve been meaning to do, but haven’t had the time to persue? Like traveling or changing careers, or studying other subjects, or volunteering with a worthy cause, or cleaning, painting or organizing your home? If so do those things NOW! Have you ever wanted to try something new such as ballrom dancing, or tent camping, or Thai cooking or quilting? If so then persue some of those activities NOW!
When you involve yourself in activities that you love and enjoy, you are more likely to find someone that is suitable for you as a mate and love interest. Even if you don’t find a match, you will not have wasted your time.
After 6 months (If you find that you have to walk away from this guy) and you still feel pain and passion and deep feelings of un-requited love that you just can’t shake, consider getting some temporary therapy to deal with your feelings of loss. If you don’t, you’ll just suffer, needlessly, for a much longer time.
There’s no reason to feel badly about loving someone that you can’t be with. But continuing to beat yourself up and pine away for someone that you can’t have is counter-productive and very destructive to you. Every single one of us Fluthers (except for about 2 that shall remain nameless) have been through this situation, sometimes more than once and lived to tell about it. So no that you are not unique or alone in your feelings