Come to think of it, growing up I always considered myself more of a “wolf” than anything else. It wasn’t until I was named Bear that I realized how accurate a name it was. Interestingly enough, much of my stuffed animals were bunnies, wolves, and apes (even a life-size gorilla, Amy from Congo). I don’t recall having many bears..
There’s a totem of an animal my mom had when I was younger. It looked a lot like a wolf, but it had a short tail and the muzzle of a bear. I think I’m a lot like that animal, whatever it may be. Now I have wolf fur and bear teeth as my totems, and a little fetish somewhere (that’s a term for power imbued in an object, not necessarily sexual) of a carved wolf out of quartz crystal.. I also have a native American flute of cedar with a wolf on the reed piece my oldest brother carved and gave to me. I live between homes quite a bit these days and my bedroll consists of three things I take wherever I go. The first is a TempurPedic pillow (gotta love it!) and the other two are a fleece blanket with wolves on it, and a brown oversize canvas sleeping bag “Golden Bear”. I didn’t do it on purpose.
Though I am most definitely like a bear (you can ask anyone I know) and give great hugs (again, ask anybody), I still have the underlying presence of a wolf. Something about cages and hunters… I can’t explain it too well without muddling the message. I learned the three “bear foods” were already my very favorites: salmon, honey, and cherries. I also love the wolf food, venison. Other totems I relate to are the great blue heron and the mouse.
I have never seen a bear in the wild, but only at the zoo. I recall seeing the sunbear at the Charles Paddock Zoo caged up with a feeling akin to the loneliest, most helpless hurt I’ve ever had elsewhere. I don’t like zoos at all, anymore.
@FluffyChicken I don’t think you’ve ever seen me angry.. Actually, probably the easiest way (lacking a better term) to see the power of a bear (or any creature) is to make them sad. Most bears I’ve known, people and animal (even dogs) exhibit their greatest will during moments of extreme grief. It’s difficult to anger a bear in jest or without major issues going on, but the moment you make them regret your existence, or their own, is that which will be the most dangerous to you. Think about it. You’ve heard of some bears called “manhunters.” If a bear never had the loss of something dear to it, like a parent or a child, do you think it would have sought the name?