Egh. ’‘scratches noggin’’ Life and existing is so complicated that the best effort I might do is explain it through something extremely simple, and something that I don’t believe in. Like when the Devil is said to come claim the souls of the damned before they die, but he has to do it through order and must abide by specifications. There has to be a cycle and some logic revolving around the victim, and it all has to fit together somehow in the victim’s life, before it ends.
So in that sense, we all have a role to play, and I’m no exception. I use Satan for this because it’s easier to make sense of what I’m trying to say then if I were to use God, because I don’t see that much ’‘good’’ anywhere. Now that’s where it gets iffy, since I don’t believe in stuff but I believe that how we work is much similar to what a lot of beliefs present, but on a scientific angle. So maybe if use a Stephen King quote instead; life is like a huge ass jungle, and we happen to be the meanest motherfuckers in it.
Now you’re probably wondering what this has to do with what you’re asking, since the question is wanting individual response and not some personal opinion about universal matters.
But that’s just it, I’m in some badass jungle, and I’ve got some role to play, and that which I can’t go against, since I don’t know what it is, no matter how much I may think I do. So I don’t know how to explain my story since I don’t know what it is. I can define it myself through my own experiences, and probably that’s the most important part when I consider how insignificant I am, that is, if I’m trying to be a little less pessimistic, but what it all boils down to, ultimately, that being the best I can do, rather than what it truly is.
A goth may champion individualism and diversity, but they’re still human and think like humans. They’re no different than anyone else, and perhaps their only role in life is to engorge the pockets of Hot Topic chain stores, or frighten small children into behaving and doing their homework, therefore ironically changing mindframes to fit into the norms of society. There are no black sheep, just a lot of different bandwagons.
That’s an extremely crude and stereotypical example, but it should do for the time being.
I mean like, whatever walk of life one has, it has some purpose that furthers evolution and societies in the long run, but to what purpose this leads to, who knows. I don’t even think there’s a purpose, considering that I think we’re animals. We just do what we do until we cease to exist, and forcibly, everything has to cease existing some day. And that faithful day will also cease to exist. Until then, we’ll keep killing our fellow man if they present a threat to us, and we’ll keep loving our children as long as evolution needs them. Of course, some people are not loved, others are not killed, but a role is still assigned to them, like a slap in the face, that is, if anybody wanted to point out how narrow minded this here answer seems.
Ants have societies too. We may be superior to them in that we can kill them, but we’ll never truly be superior to them until we make them understand that. And we can’t. So, in that sense, that’s why I relate mankind to animals, since we just do what we do. We’re just the meanest ones.
So because of that, I never thought of my life as a story or anything like that. To me it’s like, I’m playing out some role I know nothing of, and so is everyone else. I often try to take events and string them together to make sense of things, and I often succeed, or so I think. Might be delusion though. In fact delusion is probably the best ingredient that whatever powers that be may have of making us what do they want us to. Although said ’‘greater powers’’ are probably nothing at all, and if they are something, probably something that isn’t sentient, like we all live in some huge ass subconscious. Man I keep tracking myself off, don’t know what’s wrong with me tonight lol. XD
So like, my life is a big chess game, and I have no power to do anything ecxept enjoy the time I have until I get knocked off the board. Just like drawings put in a kid’s story book can do nothing but be drawn, and then shown. At least that’s how it feels. I guess my life can be a story, or told as one. But a story needs a meaning, and I don’t feel that me being some chess piece is really meaning enough for me, at least not on what I perceive to be the grand scheme of things. It’s more like the Energizer Bunny, you go on and on and on until you stop. So I guess my life can be a lot of things, whatever what is, I just never thought about that, since I’m too preoccupied being an emo. XD
I wrote some answer on here not too long ago about how life is people being plopped in a river with a strong current, and then you swim, drown or hang on to a log or something. I guess kind of like that, but less hectic, and more organized.