What's on your mind right now?

I wasted so much money going out to eat, because I was too lazy to cook, but since I started cooking, it’s not bad at all and I could have saved more money in the past. Dammit…....!

Actually I was just thinking whether to take the kids to the cinema or bowling this weekend.
Hmm, I may go mad & we’ll do both!

I don’t remember what happened at the last nekked pancake party. Hopefully I didn’t get into any trouble…

What to do for my birthday and a boy I met at a concert.

That I have to pee.

What do you think? I’m a man. There’s only one thing on my mind at all times. Seriously. It is the source of all creativity. It is the driving force behind everything.

@wundayatta get a room! ... with yourself.

I need to get off of Fluther and get some housework done. Also, what to get my son for his 17th birthday coming up in two weeks. We don’t have much to spend, so hopefully he won’t be too disappointed.

@Jude I’m not staying indoors 24/10, lol. I mean 7. 24/7. It only seems like 10 days a week. Or is it 8?

I have “Twinkle, Twinkle” stuck in my head. When I was going down to put the laundry in the dryer, there was a 3-year-old girl in there with her mom. She was singing the song but just repeating the same word over and over to the tune… I don’t know what she was saying. They were East Indian, so it could have been another language. Anyway, it was adorable.

I should be working instead of Fluthering.

I need to brush my teeth. That exciting enough for ya?

The light shining though my window made the fan on my computer look a bit like Saturn’s rings. And the fan is really dusty. Video

That @noelleptc is a bit too tired to be fluthering.

@erichw1504 The 8 by 10 inch glossy photos will be distributed Saturday afternoon. Yes, they are in color and I didn’t know you had a tatoo there.

@Tropical_Willie Crap…

Is there enough sunlight outside to take pictures of my spring gardens? We have had days of rain; I have forgotten what the sun looks like.

I need to find $3000 by tomorrow or I wont be able to put on a show tomorrow night at the hotel I work at. I need a new microphone, mixing desk, speakers, amp and other equipment.

How much I’ll need to work at my 2nd job in order to finish paying for stuff on my wedding plans list.

I just keep thinking how certain moms and moms-to-be are completely clueless about babies and parenting and pregnancy and I have no idea why (barring illiteracy) they can’t just look things up, find a book and READ or take classes. I see a lot of my friends’ friends doing the whole ‘pregnant in heels and partying because I better still be able to look cute’ thing and later ask such ridiculously dumb questions about what’s happening to them that I fear for their babies, seriously.

The pink elephant.

My skull.

(NSFW) I am so so horny and want to have sex!!!! Playing with one’s self only goes so far for satifaction. I need it and I need it now!!!!! It feels like forever since I had sex and I am crawlin the walls.

I really need to get working on this project…

I was thinking of the Casey Anthony trial, and wondering how jury selection is going.

Should I put on a jumper? It’s getting a little cool.

Hmm… who’s hotter: Jessica Alba or Natalie Portman?

@noelleptc Yaayyy!

@Cruiser now my mind is on how hot you look in that picture!!! What’s on your mind??

@creative1 How red that rose is in your pic that now matches my blushing cheeks! ;)

@Cruiser which cheeks would those be…….hmmmm I wonder upper or lower

@Cruiser & @creative1 get a room you two!

I’m right behind you @noelleptc!

I’m wondering when I’ll have time to do my hair for a wedding Saturday. I’m going to need about 5 hours =/
I’m also thinking about how peaceful the world would be if everyone smoked weed in place of drinking alcohol…

I’m wondering if I get up and grill the sausage I have defrosted for dinner, or say screw it and make tuna sandwiches. Husband has declared that he doesn’t care which it is.

I’m also trying to work through a contradiction that has plagued me for years.

I’m hoping I actually pass my finance final. though i need a 58 to pass the course

After some really tragic events in my life years ago I lost two children and my husband. I adopted a three year old little girl. She is 24 years old now, married to a wonderful guy in the Navy. She just called me about two hours ago and told me she is pregnant!

My stepdaughter from my second marriage is coming Saturday to visit for a week with her husband and two year old daughter. EVERYONE, stepdaughter, husband, son-in-law, everyone knows I feel like the two year old is grandchild. My only grandchild…until now.

I’m actually feeling a little torn and guilty for thinking, if God’s willing and my (adopted) daughter’s baby is born, that is my first grandchild. My secret and yours to my grave.

The writing I have to do today that is overdue.
The marking I have to do that will be overdue if I don’t get it done this weekend.
The weekend away I need to plan and that I haven’t even applied for the holidays yet.
That I should get dressed in case the furniture delivery people turn up.
That I don’t actually want to get up out of bed yet. It is warm and toasty here.

I’m sitting here feeling like a fool because I caused the baby (2 year old) to get hurt last night.

We were shopping and he kept fussing about being hooked into the safety belt, so I unhooked it. I’ve never had a problem with him before, but this time was different. He stood up, and his brother (4 year old) pulled on the cart to make him sit down, and he took a header right on to the concrete floor of the store.

He cried and a bump the size of a golf ball appeared on his forehead. We got some ice from the snack shop, but he hated when I held it on, and screamed even louder. We started home, and he went to sleep, so I panicked and had Hubby drive straight to the hospital. I called his mom and dad, and Hubby went home to get our medical permission release document. Mommy and Daddy showed up before Hubby even got back.

By that time, Jay had recovered fully and was alert and walking around. The doctor examined him and gave him some tylenol. So I’m sitting here wondering what kind of Grandma would release the safety belt?

I have a headache, that blocking my mind.

Aww @yarnlady. You are a Grandma who made an error and we can all do that. Momentary lapse of judgement. How many times do I wish I had done things differently. Hugs… the baby is fine I am taking it? Everyone learned a lesson and the baby will not be unstrapped again. We live and learn, you know that :-) Make a cuppa, go for a walk in the garden and try not to think on it any more today.

How awesome my mom is. She’s going to buy me two butterfly bushes. =)

How I hope I have the highest bid at the foreclosure auction this saturday for a townhouse that needs very little work.

My muscles are aching.
My impending exams.

What’s on my mind… too much. Mostly my dad. I kind of am starting to wonder, well, it’s been five years and every year he says he’s going to come pick us up. He says if my brother and I’s mom won’t let him take us to his house for the summer (like it says in the court agreement) he’ll take her to court. He says he doesn’t care what she says. But reality is it’s been five years that I haven’t seen his face or heard his real voice. It’s been five years since I hugged him or smelt his cheap minty smelling deodorant. Five years since I’ve got to bull with him, or throw soda bottles off the roof to watch it explode. And lately we haven’t even been talking on the phone much either. It makes me wonder if he still cares as much as he says he does.

@rock4ever Sorry you’ve to go through this. Hang on in there.

@rock4ever custody issues are never pretty, I am going through family court right now for an adoption but the judge we are under handles primarily custody issues and its a he said she said situation. Just because you are not seeing him does not nescessiarly mean he doesn’t love or want to see you. Keep an open mind as you are growing up I know it will be hard not to become angry, because him not seeing you could all be him deciding not to but it could be he feels his hands are tied and he’s tired of fighting. Just continue to love both your parents because he wouldn’t be contacting you at all if he wanted nothing to do with you. Your parents both fighting in courts shows that they both love you because they both want to be with you. But there is only one of you and sometimes when a divorce happens the adults sometimes forget how to share the most important thing that they made together. I am going to hope and pray you get to spend some time with your dad real soon.

How fucking clueless men can be.

Thanks @stardus and @creative1 for your support. It was much needed. I hope the best for you both.

@rock43ever: I’ll share something I learned and have seen it happen a lot. Sometimes when dads feel sad, bad, guilty or whatever then instead of reaching out, they stay quiet. Sometimes they think they’ll make it up to you “when they get on their feet” or get their shite straightened out. Reach out to your dad and tell him time has past and is passing and that you’d settle for less than ideal just to have some time with him.

Let your mother know how awful you feel that so much time has gone by that you’ve not been able to see your dad for whatever reasons.

Brooding. Today was too much for me. Got my pay from work, and it’s all gone for bills and crap, so now I’m all broke. My roomate is really pissing me off. She had a huge fit today, and I’m sick of putting up with her constant bouts of anger. It’s always happening, for every little thing. I get told to fuck off if I try to help, or get her to talk about stuff. Fair enough, but it still pisses me off in turn.
I worry too much about a future I don’t wanna go through. Keep thinking about shit I can’t do anything about. My grandma always tells me, when you go to bed, pack your worries and problems in a box, huck it across the bedroom and let God deal with it. I don’t believe in God, but I like that advice. Ain’t working today though. Bottom’s up, haha.
I know it all seems extremely banal, but that’s what it is. Prolly the same for my roomate too. She lashes out in anger and I lock myself in my room. We’re both valid. I’m totally a bitch of the highest order haha. Some days I can hack it, others not. Today is one of those. Damn it booze, act up already lol.

Going on a trip starting Saturday morning though, and coming back Monday night. This should be a nice change from this assmaster social routine garbage I’m so sick of. Just living day to day, surviving and making myself believe that it’s all worth it. Well I guess it will be worth it when I feel better and stop being all emo haha.

Hmmmm….mixed bag over here. Stressed about transferring ANOTHER 5k out of my savings for the 2nd time in the last 3 months. Gah!

Lending my daughter $500 for 2 months, just had a $300 repair on an appliance, a pending attorney bill for something that needed to be amended, an upcoming brake job on my car, cats going to the vet for their second round of vaccines, and the freaking price of gas.,....it’s all outta control! lol

An ex- friend whom I decided to let go of a few months ago left me a guilt tripping voice mail the other night. Didn’t work, but but kinda fired me up temporarily.
That’s WHY she is an ‘ex’ friend. Unconscious drama queens are exiled in my zone. lol
I swear…how IS it that some people can so completely believe their own bullshit! haha

Also the coyotes are in full force killing mode again so very stressed keeping the cats safe. The game warden is going to thin the herd some…went through this last year. Hate to deal with it, but, there has been some big massacres between my two neighbors houses this week and we are all fed up with our animals being chomped on. They tore up a lamb the other day and chased a mini-donkey foal, nabbed a Corgi, killed 11 chickens and left one sad little hen all alone. :-(

On an up note, had a lot of laughs with my daughter and her boyfriend this afternoon, evening. They came over to wash their cars on my lawn and hang out. We always laugh so much…3 very quick witted brains firing all at once. :-)

What to have for lunch?

@Coloma, you either have a very expensive lawyer or a very expensive cat. We had a bounty on coyotes in the county I come from. $45 a head. Kept the packs down. Alot of my farmer friends used donkeys to protect their sheep and lambs.

@bkcunningham

No bounties in my county, only depredation permits. There are Llama and donkey guards, but these guy’s are bold. It’s breeding season and they are nabbing anything to feed their families. It’s not a happy thing for any of us on this mountain.

They sit beneath my deck and watch my cats and me, just waiting for someone to come a little closer.

Ooohhh, I wouldn’t like that. I’d have my shotgun across my lap on the deck after dark.

I’m thinking that it’s 12:59am. My alarm goes off in 3 hours and I can’t sleep.

Bacon, lot’s of bacon.

If my fiancee put on sunscreen before he left for work this morning.

Not excited about working what I thought would be a coveted day off.

Making myself feel better about working my day off because it will be pure overtime and I will use the extra to have my little doggie’s teeth cleaned and an extraction.

Jellyfish bites.

Corn dog bites.

Gary Busey bites.

Get a tetanus shot after that! And rabies! And hepatitis! Hell, just get ‘em all!

Nah, a Megan Fox bite will cure everything I got from my Gary Busey bite.

orange trees….. and what might be underneath them.

Alternate universes.

How I can become a backup singer

Going HOME in a couple of hours! :D

Wondering what would happen if they’re actually right and the world will being to end tomorrow.

I better go to sleep soon, or tommorow’s going to be another tough and tiring day!

That it really, really, really must be nearly home time and I don’t want to do that last thing I have to do.

I haven’t drank for three days. For me, that’s pretty good. Of course, it’s really because I couldn’t rather than wouldn’t…so all that’s on my mind is the eventual beer that I plan to chug this night haha.

Have one for me @Symbeline!

I am trying to work out how to improve a course I work with. That is very much on my mind and I wake up in the morning mulling over things I want to try. It needs a lot of work. I am also working with my husband on our holiday plans. Less than three weeks to go and we haven’t finished booking accommodation and the like… I still need that clock where I can press a button and everything stops but me.

Hope that beer tasted good @Symbeline!

I’m wondering why I don’t get rid of my cats, being as they woke me up and one in the A.M. and I just realized I’m answering a question almost 10 years old. Just shoot me. No, shoot my cats. Then, shoot the question and if you have any ammo left, shoot my lap top.