Well, over the past few months, my life has taken a turn out of suffering and suckage and into the awesome and magical. :)
I was afraid to say anything, or fear it was a transient feeling.. but, as it’s been weeks now, I feel pretty safe in stating my accomplishment—I pretty much no longer give a shit about what people think. That was my new years resolution, to care less, and I really wasn’t getting anywhere there for a while, despite the fact that I was conscious of trying to work in that direction.
I feel like I’m back on the right path again and it’s flipping amazing. I just woke up one day, post work stress and a spiritual journey aided by mushrooms, and thought, ‘God.. I am so sick and tired of caring what everyone thinks. It’s so exhausting..’
And, what’s weird, is after that, I just pretty much stopped caring, for the most part.
Lastly, after so many, many, many years of struggle and strife, I’m finally having good, wonderful, amazing things fall into my lap. I feel almost manic, with how happy I am with my life right now. I’m growing, exploring, and learning.. and most importantly, I seem to be finally getting the things I need. :)