My smoking addiction has been a part of me for 15 years, it’s long passed deciding what I’m gonna talk about. Sad but true. It’s like, when you sit around with other smokers, nobody notices you’re having a smoke, and you don’t notice them. It’s just what you do. If anything, you just bitch about the weather if it’s raining, too hot or too cold.
Unless you’re out of smokes.
But if you were outside in shitty weather you didn’t want to be in for reasons other than having a cigarette, you’d do the same. The source that brings you out there would just be whatever else brought you outside. I’ve seen it happen.
The only times I can remember smoking significantly altering my social behaviour is when I first started. When you’re not used to it, smoking can send you in a bit of a state where the whole act becomes intertwined with your social presentation. Elaborate on shit too much, tell stupid, meaningless stories and whatnot, because you feel activated through the relaxation that a smoke gives, as odd as it sounds. Of course, being fourteen at the time, that was probably normal anyway, haha.
But that’s all faded away a long time ago. During work breaks and shit, having a smoke doesn’t change me or what I talk about, or how I interpret what others are saying to me. If it does, it’s not significant at all, and is very brief.
I’ll feel extremely relaxed, or puff on it like a bitch if I’m angry, or again, let it burn if I’m bored or anxious, but I don’t find that my behaviour and convo subjects or interactions with people change at all from when I’m not having a smoke.
As pathetic as it is, when I have a smoke, it’s so natural at this point that it’s like breathing; you don’t even think about it. Unless, again, you don’t got any and you’re jonesing like a madman. XD
Booze is something that seriously alters conversations though…