I love every type of art I’ve encountered, and pieces from each style can make me weak in the knees. But music is the most overwhelmingly emotional, particularly songs about death.
I brood about death almost all the time I’m awake. These songs, in different ways, punch through the distance I have created between myself and my death, and bring the darkness up to press on my eyeballs. If any of the following come on the radio while I’m driving I have to pull over immediately, because crying and driving do not mix and I couldn’t possibly switch them off.
Rabbit in Your Headlights by UNKLE – because I feel like the world is crushing me.
There’s No Way Out of Here by David Gilmour – because I do not believe in existence after death and I love living, and because I’m afraid I will end without figuring anything out.
Darkness, Darkness by The Youngbloods – because I don’t want to want death, and this song kind of makes me want to die. I don’t want death to be emptiness, but I think it probably is. If there’s one thing I think is the case, metaphysically speaking, it is that something is better than nothing. And this song makes me afraid that nothingness might be better than somethingness.
Now I’m crying, so I think I’ll tell you about some of the music that makes me feel good.
I’ve trained myself to relax whenever I hear a Jose Gonzalez song (well, most songs – Crosses is another that makes me sad) or play one in my head – not difficult to figure out why on this one, I’d imagine. Junip too, for that matter. I don’t listen to Jose and Junip just to relax, though – I find them deeply soothing and meaningful.
Certain other songs I find turn me on a lot – more than porn, and nearly as much as sensation. Simply listening to Jimi play most anything (but particularly the Band of Gypsies songs), Grand Funk Railroad (no vid for “Reaper”, but that’s the one I’d put in), 13th Floor Elevators, and I Put a Spell on You by Marilyn Manson. The last is hot in part because of that scene from Lost Highway with Patricia Arquette…yumm. As to the others, they may turn me on because I’ve dropped acid, had sex, and listened to this music all at the same time, which is a very intense experience – and so now I just find the music itself really sexy. Also, these are all bands/songs with excuse the pun a pounding rhythm. Getting turned on by certain songs is an issue, once again, when this stuff comes on the radio ;)
OK, just a quick add on some of the paintings that stick to my soul: Francis Bacon, Brueghel the Elder, Toulouse-Lautrec, and Salvador Dali – works that are, generally speaking, about humanity, madness, and death.