What are you afraid of people finding out about you?

Doesn’t answering this defeat the purpose of keeping it quiet?

Nothing. Th minutiae of my life are fascinating only to me, I would think.

(…that big a deal..delete the of.)

Well….I would hope people never found out about redacted, or the time I redacted, and certainly if redacted was ever known people might look at me differently. That is all I can think of right now. Was that enough?

Yes, nothing. I am a big girl and I am the director of my own life, I dropped my people pleasing neurosis years ago. I operate by the the J.A.D.E. rule.
I do not justify, argue, defend or explain myself and my choices to anyone.

There is something… but I’m afraid of you all finding out!

It’s embarrassing and I would worry about being judged for it, or (worse) pitied. I know there are many Jellies here who wouldn’t, but there are also a lot of people here that I don’t know at all. Having said that I’m less bothered about people online than I am about people I physically know.

I’m not telling. They might shun me.

That I’m bipolar and yes, it’s a big deal. You should have seen how my family referred to my bipolar aunt before she died. They think badly enough of me as it is. I’d hate to see those looks come my way.

I told my friends, and that was that. Haven’t seen them since. All except one.

I can’t say I’m really afraid. If they do find out, I’ll deal. But it is nicer without them knowing.

@wundayatta One of my closest friends is bipolar. She was very wary of telling me. It hasn’t affected the way I think or feel about her. In fact I’m glad that she did because now I know when she’s apparently shutting me out, it’s not because she doesn’t like me. It’s just the way it affects her sometimes.

Not a single, solitary thing.

Well, not only am I transsexual, but I am gay. The first is hard enough for people to wrap their heads around in some way, but the second in combination tends to blow people’s minds. I’ve just gotten to the point where I am read more or less consistently as the proper gender, and I am therefore not forthcoming about being trans in real life except in specific contexts (medical, new romantic partners, etc.) I’d just rather have people view me as the kind, respectful bookish dude I am, instead of as “that trans person” (either with undertones of ’what a freak of nature’ or ‘I have to be all PC and faux-respectful because being misconstrued as a bigot would simply be too embarrassing’, which tend to be the two choices in the area I live.)

I’m a bastard. :)

React which way? I’m so confused.

@AnonymousWoman Okay AW. Sometimes I get way too turned on by a lady. Then I have a haired trigger, if you get my drift. But I recover fast. :). You’ve been a great sport with me.

@wundayatta: I just noticed what you wrote about your friends. That’s a shame, man, but I guess they weren’t really friends to begin with, huh? I had some false friends disappear on me when they learned this thing about me as well :-/

That I care.

That I’m not actually Batman.

That I don’t really eat cookies every day.
every other day, maybe

I don’t like to drop trow (at the docs) because of all the hair on my ass. I know people would laugh. Or try not to.