Dear jellies, thank you so very much for your thoughts. This is all just what I needed to hear. Have I ever mentioned that I love Fluther?
I’ve been feeling pretty conflicted about this recently. Being both trans and gay means that my prospects for both romantic relationships and casual sexual partners are severely limited. And bad decisions on my part have meant that I have both been in relationships with and had casual sex with the wrong people, too many times. While there was no romantic relationship this summer, the encounter I had with my friend just felt like a gift. I will always be grateful for it.
@marinelife: Thank you, you put that advice very clearly and eloquently. It took me a long time to learn how to separate love and sex, and I guess this summer they were reunited for me again. But I’ll do my best to think as you advise, going forward.
@DrBill : Actually, I have tried poly! I’ve never been in a group relationship, but at several points I have been in multiple committed relationships, or had playmates along with committed relationships. It just so happens that the sex has never been this good, haha.
@wundayatta : When did you get the power to read my mind? Haha. This guy is definitely one of the loves of my life (thanks again for helping me figure out how to tell him that this summer!), and I have realized that he has meant many of the same things to me as my first girlfriend in high school meant to me, at a different stage in my life. No idea how to measure intensity of feeling either, but I am not bipolar, and I do tend to believe that I have trouble finding that throttle on my feelings that you mention.
@zenvelo: Wow, ten years? What do you think caused you to finally stop thinking about her on a daily basis?
@augustlan: Thank you. This wasn’t even a breakup, just the end of a fling because of geography, but I agree, it does kind of feel the same. But I won’t hang up my hat. ;) And I sure couldn’t make it much longer without some casual play, it’s been killing me :-p
@jordym84: Very sage advice. Thank you :)