I’ve never been a good music listener. I find popular music enormously frustrating. I can’t understand the words to songs, except maybe one word in three, and those words I find very distracting. So I prefer instrumental music or music where the voice is used as an instrument, not to sing words. This has gotten worse as I have aged. My ability to understand words in spoken or sung form with lots of additional sound is severely diminished.
I was never much of a fan of pop music; preferring classical and jazz. But there was a period of my life when I listened to music more, and that was in the decade or so after college.
Still, my life was handed back to me one day by my chiropractor. He had been treating me for an injury I sustained in a car accident. He came over one day, and saw my trumpet case. Since he played trumpet too, he asked me to play, and when he heard how I sounded, he gave me some exercises to bring my lips back into shape.
Since that day more than twenty years ago, I have been playing music more than I listen to recorded music. I play almost every Friday night. Sometimes I play with other configurations of musicians, too. It’s all improvisational music, so I can’t be wrong. And during the time I was sick, it was only for those few hours each week that I could forget who I was, and become pure music. That was the only true relief I got from the deadly black weight of depression.
It did soothe my savage breast and my savage beast who dwelled within my breast. I played no small role in saving my life.
My horn is forty years old now. It is like my wife. Faithful and beautiful. It is now joined by a mistress, my flugelhorn, who is younger and sexier. My trumpet was jealous of the flugelhorn at first, but has come to coexist in a loving way. This is actually not my metaphor, but one I read in the literature about horns when researching which flugelhorn to get. But the feelings between the horns were true. They did not suffer each other well at first.
My wife trumpet is worn so thin, I can’t get it refurbished any more. So one day, a pinhole will appear, and the sound will die. I dare not even give her a bath for fear of what might happen. I suppose when that happens, I may have to buy a new trumpet. That should be interesting.
Music is in my blood and I have tried to pass this feeling on to my children via the piano. My daughter is a singer and pianist. My son is a more skilled pianist who studies with a teacher whose teaching lineage goes back through Liszt to Beethoven, we found out today. Pretty cool.