Am I normal because I prefer Startup Companies rather than Corporation?

I’ve been in software industry for 10+ years, the only problem is I’ve been suffering major depression every time I landed a corporate jobs. But every time I work on startup companies I’ve been like a rockstar where I can do my best and work on 10 hours or more and do my best. Compare to working on corporations i feel so fatigue and tired and so uncreative. I started to wonder , do I have a personality problem, the reason I ask this is because my wife told me that I have an abnormal personality on choosing unstable and risky companies rather than having a stable job on corporations. It bothers me because it had reached the point that she’s not talking to me anymore. I felt even more depressed about it. Thanks any help will do. sob!!!