@Seek_Kolinahr I like your answer. I can identify with the punk attitude.
@josie I’ve been thinking about this question because I know I can be guilty as charged, having a shitty attitude. I don’t think life is shitty by nature but it can be shitty at times so let’s call a spade a spade. I’m not even going to delve into the reasons why I can sometimes have the attitude. I’m not going to answer from a personal perspective. I had a metaphorical insight that I want to relate for what it’s worth.
Here it is.
The difference in attitude has a lot to do with confidence. A confident person tends to react to life’s shittier aspects by redoubling efforts and in general not letting it bother them too much. It’s taken as part of life and as they say, this too shall pass.
In general I find that people tend to think of confidence as either something you have or something you don’t. I don’t think of it that way at all. I think attaining unshakeable confidence is a near impossible feat. I don’t think it’s a static quality or something that once you have it you can’t lose it. You may have faith in yourself overall and not feel confident at times.
To me, confidence is like a piggy bank. Life gives you or you build up deposits. With love, success, a good self image and people who believe in you and support you emotionally you can build up your stores of confidence.
But life’s stresses and difficulties small and large result in debentures and withdrawals on your piggy bank of confidence. Bit by bit it gets depleted and it’s necessary to continually build it up and restore it otherwise you risk getting wiped out. Minor things can be remedied by a hug, a pep talk, exercise, meditation, religion, music, positive self talk, etc,whatever works for you.
Sometimes a major life event like a business failure, a divorce or a physical impairment or injury gives you a major setback. Your funds may be almost or completely wiped out. Now you have not much more to go on but your faith in yourself and all of the things that first built up your confidence account. Maybe some of those things aren’t around anymore. Maybe you no longer have youth, health, or family. Maybe you have failed in a major way and feel like time is running out. Maybe something you have always depended on, the wind beneath your wings so to speak has vanished. So you start over, or try to. People have amazing tenacity and self endurance. The will to survive is strong but life can be very frustrating.
So you start to build up your piggy bank again. Or maybe you don’t. Maybe you can’t rally. You are tired, hurt, discouraged, angry, cynical…some or all of the above. So you become fatalistic. You complain. You have a bad attitude. It doesn’t mean you’re willing to cash in your last remaining chips in the game of life, cause like I said, the will to live is strong. Misery loves company and that’s not hard to find. Sure, it’‘d be great to not feel this way and maybe some day you’ll rally and you’ll get back on the horse. But in the meantime, you complain.
If you’re a perfectionist it’s hard because you want life to be a certain way that it just never is. You keep trying and trying. Not only do others not live up to your hopes and expectations, but usually you cannot live up to them either. But you seem to be constitutionally unable to cut yourself some slack. So it’s tough. You make it tougher for yourself by being a perfectionist but it’s hard to let go of.
Some people seem to have more ability to weather life’s storms. I think having a happy childhood helps by giving you a reserve of good feelings and faith in humanity. On the other hand, maybe having suffered abuse and survived it makes you a stronger person and more resilient, hard to say.