When does one gain access back into being a person, when you are a parent?

This is a difficult question to word. But here goes!

I’ve been a mom for 30 years. I always felt being a parent was a huge responsibility in terms of modelling for my child. Or, at least being a type of person that would be fitting to be a mother. (Well that is in my child’s eyes of course). The result is, my son think I am by an large an old fogy I think. However, things are changing around here!

I want me back. I want me back, and without shame! But I don’t want my son to think I have lost my marbles. Does that make sense? How did you/do you parent? As you, warts and all, or as a different type of person. Since you feel you are a role model? And if so, at say 50 how did you get your groove back? Without scaring the adult kids.