@chelle21689 – My wife and I have a baby girl who turned 1 not too long ago. For what it’s worth, you’re not imagining things, it’s just hard to explain why it happens that way.
For me and us (other couples might be different) we had to completely rework how we related to each other. You have a new #1 priority in everything you do. It’s easy to say, and I thought I understood it before the baby came along, but it’s so much bigger than I realized.
Parts of it were easier than I expected (you get used to the nights and little sleep pretty quickly), parts were harder (it’s very near impossible to get any work done while watching a baby, and just multiply your normal estimated time by 3 or more. Really, I’m not being funny.)
The easiest way I can explain it is to line up everything you have going on in your life right now and then take away 4–12 hours a day that you have no control over any longer. What of your current priorities can you cut to make room? On days where I’m not the primary caretaker, I figure 4 hours, a little in the morning, dinner/bath/bed/cleanup at night. For days where I’m in charge, it’s 12 hours easily not counting time I can get things accomplished while she’s down for naps.
I think I’m a pretty efficient mofo, and it completely rocked my schedule, which is more flexible than most. I gave up exercising, visiting with friends just about disappeared and became quick “here’s the baby” sessions, I cut way back at work, my wife and I didn’t have more than 3 hours alone for at least 9 months, and there’s days where I don’t get a shower. All of those things were “important” before the baby.
After a few months me and my wife sat down and had a talk about what the really necessarily parts of our relationship were because we didn’t have time for it all. What makes us feel loved and connected? We try to get as many those done as possible, because they’re important, but it still takes a ton of understanding when they just don’t happen. Sometimes it sucks. Sometimes you run out of gas and options at the same time and no matter how important something is suddenly your eyes are closed on the couch. Sorry I didn’t do the dishes, beautiful, I meant to.
So if you can’t make it through all the slights (there will be slights) or if either party gives up on the other, then you’re going to go where you can find something to make you happy, and that new little person is truly magical. The smiles, new skills, snuggles, and accomplishments are a constant source of joy when they’re small. Every day is something new that they understand. It makes you feel good that you’re building something great. It makes you feel good that they love you and that you can provide for them. People can take pride in that relationship even when they’re not proud of the state of the relationship with their partner right then.
The baby needs less later and in a perfect world you rebuild anything that was lost then along with having this new member of the family.
Not complaining by any means, and my wife and I are good, just hoping to explain why one part of the family may seem “more loved” and how it gets to that point. There just isn’t time for everything, not even everything that’s important so your relationship has to adapt and that’s hard. Some may appear more successful at it than others, but I’m almost certain they all had trouble with it.