@jca I would say possibly on some medical fronts. I had to be, the doctors were not helping me on their own. I have been right too often, that I feel the respnsibility of taking care of my own health, it is awful. I have been right when doctors are wrong. My thyroid was bouncing around all over the place until I finally found a doctor who believed I take my pill perfectly every morning, was willing to change brands for an easier to swallow pill for me, and let me get a blood test whenever I felt my thyoid was off. Sometimes three weeks from my last test. Finally we figured out a pattern where I could really get good control over my thyroid. She didn’t make me come for an appointment to see her every time we did the blood test, which was a huge help. A help because ai did not feel like I was getting robbed and wasting my time. Now I have to find a new doctor since I moved, and when I tell them I need a test every 3 months, I think they think I am hypervigilant probably, but they are not listening to me that it is the only way we have found to keep my thyroid in check.
I have a chronic infection that sometimes I leave alone for years and stay sick. I don’t go to the doctor for it or try to treat, just stay sick. When I first came down with it I went from doctor to doctor and back to my same doctor. I tried multiple supposed remedies that did not work. Some would have seen me as shopping aroundnfor doctors, or being a hypochondriac. I don’t think I was either. I was sick, really sick. I almost never think I have the worst scenerio. I don’t ever think it must be cancer or that I am dying. Doctors diagnose me with things and I simply don’t believe it or accept it. One doctor said I have fybromalgia, I don’t agree. For a long time I was diagnosed with vulvodynia, now I am really pissed off about that diagnosis, I think it hampered my treatment to get better. Another doctor thought I likely had clitoral cancer and wanted to schedule surgery for the next week to cut off my clit basically, and thank God I didn’t do that. I mean really, when I think about that I get sick to stomach that he would have butchered me for nothing.
So, watch choice to I have? I think people who have chronic problems get a bad wrap of being hypochondriacs and maybe even hypervigilant, but the truth is, they are “sick” every day all day and they hope for a cure one day. So, many of them read up, and talk to others and try a new doctor, treatment or test sometimes. One chronic illness is not the same as another. My hurt shoulder from my accident, I don’t feel compelled to see doctors about it or get xrays. I know why it hurts.
Funny, now I rarely go from doctor to doctor, because I can’t hear another doctor tell me they don’t see a problem or not believe me, and a few years ago I was a seeing a therapist for a few sessions and she said why do I care if doctors don’t believe me or can’t help me, just go to another doctor.
So, which is it? Should I be hyper vigilant and question my doctor, or just be sick. I oscillate between the two choices.
Having said all that, I don’t dwell or feel sick regarding my thyroid. As far as my other chronic problems they are there but I don’t feel “sick” all the time in my mind either, even regarding those things. It’s just there. I have many days of being pain free if I just don’t do things that can cause pain.