@Mandeblind Ok, good, you are doing something to fix it. I completely understand why you are nervous. I have become a nervous wreck dealing with medical issues, because I have had bad medical advice and procedures go wrong, and I feel like I need to be on top of everything and question doctors. I hope you don’t get as far gone as me. Hopefully, if you have a good experience with the second surgery it will all be behind you.
Everyone is somewhat assymetrical, the girls I mentioned are extremely assymetrical and almost look like maybe they had had a stroke or some sort of nerve damage to their face. You do sound a little overfocused on your face, I have never heard someone say they want look good without make-up as a reason for surgery, especially a nose job, who didn’t have an acne problem. My family is full of nose jobs, my mom, sister, aunt, and also many friends of mine. In some cultures it is almost a right of passage. But, my advice is once you get this corrected, work on other aspects of your life. Your relationships, your career, things like that. It does sound like they botched your nose job, which I am empathetic towards, I feel for you, I am not questioning that the first surgeon messed it up, and it is completely reasonable that you are upset, but it sounds like it can be fixed and then move towards letting people know the beautiful person you are inside who draws people for what you are, not what you look like. When people tell me how helpful I was, or compliment something about me as a person, it makes me feel much better than being told I am pretty. I’m not saying how we look doesn’t affect us, but it affects things less than most young people think.
Trying to fix physical things that are not very bad sometimes is not worth the risk. Maybe you thought there was no risk? A lot of people don’t think about the risk of it coming out worse than before, or risks with surgery. Nose job has very little risk with the surgery itself. My husband is like that, he never thinks sonething will go wrong. Well, now he does after being married to me for so many years.
I wasn’t a party person in school, and I became quite depressed. People think drinking and doing risky things when we are young puts our lives at risk, but being on the outside socially is a risk in itself. Eventually, I found a group of friends who weren’t into drinking and drugging and it helped me out of my depression. I also went to therapy during that time, which was helpful to, but making the friendships helped the most. During my late teens and 20’s I began to not feel the peer pressure and was able to say no more easily and things got much much better.
If you remember update us after the surgery and tell us if you are happy with the results.