@syz Thank you so much for the clarification.
You are absolutely correct to say cyclical arguments such as you mentioned are nonsensical. They’re stupid.
I believe in God, but I follow no religion. I don’t get it either.
I see belief in God and religion as 2 separate things. My personal belief is not dependent on attending any religious functions to learn a set of rules whereby I may have access to that God. For me, belief is about feeling that something is fundamentally correct, and religion is about control. I believe in God, because it feels right to me. I don’t practice any religion, because I don’t need to be told when and how I can know the divine.
Personally, I believe that God is unlimited from time and space. God’s existence does not depend on my ability to explain it. God is indefinable. It cannot be known, but I do believe it can be experienced. I believe in a Classical God. I use Classical to mean something akin to Platonic ideals or Aristotle’s Unmoving Mover. God is a logical, indefinable necessity by which everything that is has its being. God is being.
I have read a lot on a wide variety of topics. I have not read anything in science to refute the idea that a Classical God is impossible. I have read a lot in many different kinds of literature that a Modern God as is thought of by the average believer I meet in the street today is, in fact, impossible. The average believer thinks God is a part of the universe that at a distinct point in time caused the universe to exist.
That’s wrong. God cannot be a part of the universe subject to its laws and existing in it somewhere. Such a being is not supreme. The second it becomes the thing which caused the universe to exist according to definable laws, then it also becomes subject to those laws and is therefore a limited, finite being. It is not God.
But a Classical God is being. It just is.
I believe God exists in the natural longing present in every culture I am aware of to know transcendentals like truth and beauty. That longing represents an irrepressible urge by people to know something larger than what is readily exhibited to our everyday existence. There is nothing in the natural world to suggest absolute truth and beauty exist, yet every culture strives for those things.
Many years ago, I was staying for a time on a farm. There were many ponds and grassy areas and trees. I walked around the area a lot, and I really enjoyed myself. I do not remember all the details, because it’s been probably 2 decades now. I do remember walking back from one of the ponds to the house one evening, and I was quite suddenly and ecstatically struck by the knowledge that all this exists in order for love to exist. There is no other reason.
I readily admit that there were thoughts coursing through my head, and those thoughts can be broken down by neuroscientists to electro-chemicals in the brain. I have not read anything to convince me that those electro-chemicals can be said to physically hold thought itself. The electro-chemicals do not hold ideas.
What I’m trying to say is that my consciousness is not contained by the electro-chemical firings that occur inside my physical brain. My consciousness exists. It just is much like God is.