I’m not using her for a toy. It’s just one of the benifits. I mostly enjoy her because I can explore different places and she is great company, like the time we went to this beach that was very far from where we live. That was a great date (although she could have helped by cooking the food), because I got to experience that exotic beach with company that enjoyed being with me (well I thought so at the time). It was a great adventure for the both of us because I planned for it very well before- lots of alcho, fried chicken,camera, transport and stuff like that…but it could have been even better if she pitched in more.
We went on another date where we went to this comedy festival. She really wanted to go, and I didn’t well wasn’t excited as she was…but then I thought..how often do I go to a comedy festival. So we went, and although she reached late, we had a good time. For me, the jokes were funny but I actually enjoyed seeing her laughing heartily and enjoying herself and that really made me happy seeing that.
I enjoy her because for the little time that we were together she was being a girlfriend someone who was with me to enjoy things that I wanted to explore and I did not mention it but she is also a good listener. By this I mean, she listens to me with a good understanding. She may not be well educated but she understands my feelings. She is a lot of fun when we go out, because she does things that are outrageously funny. She is also not selfish, in the sense of going places that I like and sharing whatever little she has with me. She also has a nice temper (well when it comes to me anyhow). She cusses at her boss and other people when she gets mad…but when I tease her or do something that I know she hates she doesn’t wail on me like she does the others…and she has a really nasty temper…but whenever I tease her like pull the front of her hair that she took ohh so long to do, she just says ” Eggie why youre doing that???!!!! Do you know how long it took me to fix my hair like that??! She teases me too, and I actually am more mean than she is. Its just really nice to have someone that you can share your good pieces of life with and ..well before I start feeling this way, she was that person. I knew we are different, but to me that is what makes it so much fun. She is the type of person that my parents wouldn’t approve (which they don’t by the way) and that is what makes it kind of exciting for me…until now.
When thinking about her, she is not so bad….but I do not want my feelings to make me into a sucker. I have seen that being done to people and I do not want that to happen to me.
These are the problems:
1 Asking for money almost every time we go out. MAJOR
2 Expecting that I have to give her money every time I get paid. MAJOR
3 Not pitching in to things that we both want, like on dates and trips (am I asking to much with that one???)
4 Not being too ambitious. She should try harder to leave the sandwich place she is working in and get educated, but she keeps saying that its really hard with the kids and all.MAJOR
5 Smoking..getting tired of that.
6 Me….me for wanting to migrate because I cant take her away from her kids. I will not ask her to do that and they can’t come with me. MAJOR.