How to know what I want from my life?

Do some volunteer work somewhere. Make a connection by tutoring a child, or helping in a homeless shelter, build someone a house through habitat for humanity, work for the special olympics etc. We are social creatures and connecting with other people can be very healing and feel really good. It may awaken something in you and give you a different perspective.

I think we all get to that point in our lives sometime or another, You will find your calling, Don’t let it ruin your day.

There’s a really good book which might provide a jumping off point for you to better get I’m touch with yourself.

Try “What Color is Your Parachute”. It’s an older book and available for cheap from Amazon used (or other used book sites).

Read some of the reviewed.
This book has helped lots of people get some clarity. Give it a try.

@Khajuria9 I’m still working on some of what I want to do in life, and I’m in a society that gives me total freedom to do whatever I want. You have so many things being thrown at you in your society, parents, family, etc. It’s amazing you asked this question, in a very good way. I’m going to get crap for this answer, I’m sure, but I wanted you to know I understand where you are coming from.

You won’t find out until the end. Life is an unwritten adventure, a journey into the unknown. You can’t preconceive it.

Lean on your friends for support. It gets easier. notice I did not say better, just easier You learn to deal with life and whatever it throws at you. You come to understand that you will never have everything you desire and that you can be ok with that.

As for the sleep thing, medicate. A Tylenol PM or something similar will relax you enough to get you started on a decent nights sleep.

Try something similar to free association. Have someone make a list for you. Don;t make it yourself, that will lend to bias. Make the list to have several activities. When you have this list, sit down alone, and without any distractions. Don’‘t ponder, items, or study the list. Give yourself no more than two seconds to reply to each item. The items which make you feel good, put a check. That can tell you where to start. Don’t share the list with anybody. It is yours alone. That way you have no angst, regret, or guilt. After you finish with the list, put it away. In a day or two, look it over. This time you can think about what you checked, and what you didn’t. Think about why some of the things make you feel good, and why some don’t.
It won’t be a solution for you, but it will help you sort a few things out, and give you something to start working with.

Try and work it out now that you are young. Do your experimenting and searching as early as possible. There is nothing worse than being in your forties and still not really knowing what you want and how to go about getting it. The longer it takes to work it out, the deeper into depression you will sink and the sadder you will make those around you.