Am I afraid to lose weight?

I DESPERATELY need to lose weight. I have tried many ways to lose the weight, but as soon as I lose 3 to 5 pounds it feels like I go into panic mode and then totally sabotage myself.

I know past experiences can hinder losing weight. But I thought that I have dealt with everything. The only thing that actually can stop weight lose is that I’m on strong medications.

Therapy doesn’t help much. She said that with everything I went through and go through now on a daily basis, losing weight should be easy. But it’s not! Please HELP!