If you grew up with alcoholic parents you know how this situation ends and it’s not good.
You need to break up with him and live on your own until you find someone else unless you want to end up following in your parent’s footsteps.
Somehow ACOAs (Adult Children of Alcoholics) end up fatally attracted to alcoholics (because it’s a familiar pattern to them) unless they CONSCIOUSLY make a consistent effort to avoid it.
How do you do that? I would suggest seeing a therapist with this as your stated goal because it will be like swimming upstream against a strong current until you develop better choosing habits about whom you allow yourself to become involved with.
When you do break up with him, it might (very slim chance of success) help bring him to his senses if you let him know that the only way you would reconsider is after he has at least a year of sobriety under his belt. That means NO ALCOHOL AT ALL (not just feeble attempts at cutting back). You don’t need me to tell you that, for an alcoholic, the only solution is sobriety/complete abstinence.
They cannot handle alcohol. Ever. Period. There is no in between for an alcoholic.
You’ve seen it first hand from growing up with your parents. This boyfriend is exactly like them and deep down you know this is true. All the hoping in the world won’t change that.
You can talk to him until the moon turns blue and nothing will essentially change unless and until he decides to get sober.
Why am I saying all this? Because I also grew up in an alcoholic family system and decided to learn everything I could about it.
If you don’t want to male a financial commitment to therapy then al least start regularly going to Al Anon meetings (this is for friends and loved ones of alcoholics).
Unless you want to end up re-enacting the alcoholic misery of your childhood. It was a good first step for you to get control of your own drinking. Good for you.
But now you need to take proactive steps to make sure you don’t end up getting stuck in a lifelong enabling/codependent relationship with an alcoholic/addict. That’s a different scenario with its own bunch of misery.
And whatever else you do, DON’T GET PREGNANT. Use two methods of birth control and do whatever you have to to make absolutely certain that you don’t birth a child into a lifetime of misery with this guy as his genertic parent.
If you don’t care enough about yourself YET, at least don’t bring a defenseless child into this mess. Just in case it’s in the back of your mind that having a child will motivate him to cut back on the drinking, IT WON’T. Obviously it didn’t work for your parents and it won’t work for him.
He is an alcoholic. Cutting back on his drinking won’t last. The only option is abstinence and a sober life. In your heart you know this. You’re just feebly hoping someone can come up with a magical suggestion that will motivate him to reduce his drinking. That’s not how it works for alcoholics and you know this truth.
You can’t continue living with him until he has at least a year’s track record of sobriety.
The sooner you end this current situation, the better for all concerned.
Or else you can continue following in your dysfunctional family pattern. It’s your choice.
Please pleas get some help. Otherwise even if you end it with him, you just don’t want this same pattern with the guys you date in the future. That subconscious magnetic attraction to addiction dysfunction and chaos (even tho it makes no logical sense) is still there within you. You really need to learn how to counteract this consciously. Find a good therapist or a good group, or both.