I’ve drifted from atheism to my current stance, which is “spiritual, not religious.”
Not having a religion has allowed me to have a personal spirituality. Every major religion seems to insist that it is the one true path, and to rigidly lay out a belief system. That is incredibly off-putting and turned me toward atheism at an early age.
Atheism does something similar. What science actually says is that it can’t prove the existence of a god, that the burden of proof is on the one making the greater claim, and therefore the existence of a god is not provable or likely. But many atheists I know insist that there is no possibility of a god, because science. It’s a subtle difference but it’s important.
The one religious stance that’s truly backed by science is agnosticism. I’m a big fan of Neil Degrasse Tyson’s “agnostic atheism.” He lives his life as an atheist, in the belief that there is more than likely no god. But this belief system also says that if science someday discovers evidence of a god, he will change his views. Agnostic atheists don’t consider this especially likely, but are willing to admit that the existence of a god can’t be definitively ruled out.
I think NDT also once compared science to a circle of light that keeps expanding. Humans, with science as a tool, can definitively answer a lot of important questions. Right now the god question isn’t one of them. We can come close to a probable answer, which is where agnostic atheism comes in. But anyone who says they know, whether they’re religious or an atheist, is deluding themselves.
I’ve been all over the map in my religious beliefs and hung out in the agnostic atheism camp for a while. It’s a good spot, and I think if more atheists presented their beliefs this way, more people would be willing to consider it.
More recently, I’m starting to get curious about the stuff outside the circle of candlelight. I think there’s something incredibly special about scientific inquiry and the creative process, and they’re both part of a larger human search for meaning. Learning about the history of science, art, literature etc. is basically tracing the path of human breakthroughs. And sometimes there are overlaps, like Carl Sagan’s pale blue dot quote. Nature itself is incredibly special, and can instill a sense of awe if you stop long enough to notice it. Mostly I’m just rushing around dealing with everyday life, but we’ve probably all had a few experiences with art, literature, nature, etc that knocked us off our feet.
I’m really curious about where these “wham” experiences come from. At some point I realized I wasn’t exactly an atheist or an agnostic anymore, but that I didn’t feel comfortable in any particular religion either. It feels more like a path of asking questions and trying to learn, guided by intuition.