OK I’m confused by what you write. You stress (in bold yet) that youve given up alcohol for good.
But then you’re wondering why your tolerance is so low now.
So, you changed your mind about giving it up? If so, then you actually didn’t give it up for good.
Anyhow, from what you’ve written, I’m assuming that the bad incident to which you refer came very close to you ending up six feet under like your unfortunate friend or suffering very serious damage from drinking too much.
So why not go back to REALLY giving it up for good this time (and really stick to it)? There are tons of people who have a great time at parties and enjoy life thoroughly without the aid of any alcohol at all.
And I’m not only referring to formerly active alcoholics. There are lots of other people who eschew alcohol for various reasons, many of them health related.
Why not join them again and enjoy life without booze? For years I was a teetotaler because I grew up in an alcoholic household.
Then for a few years I would only drink socially on special occasions. Now I have to do without alcohol again due to clashing with other necessary medicines I must take.
Truth be told, it’s just not that big a deal for me. I can take it or leave it and enjoy life equally either way.
But, if you feel you simply must drink for whatever reason, then you should be grateful that your body is placing limitations upon you. Rather than regretting it, be thankful for its protective effect.
I mean, do you really need to be drinking the copious amounts you used to and killing off more brain cells and doing further damage to your liver?
You learned a valuable lesson on the destructive potential of excessive alcohol, why not continue to just leave it alone and continue to build an enjoyable life for yourself.
Just remember, “those who fail to learn from the past will be condemned to repeat it.”
And, to answer specifically on why alcohol effects you differently now, I’m guessing that your body just had enough overload of alcohol.
So, I see this as having a protective effect against a repeat of the past. In other words, as someone else expressed, your body is smarter than you are :)
Listen to it.