@cazzie . I used to be an emergency veterinarian technician. For 9 yrs. That was my passion, but it didn’t work out. It was very physically and emotionally draining. It took an amazing toll on my health, and my social life. I wouldn’t trade the sacrifices for anything though.
As far as my current main job (I have a few, ) I’ve been frank that my position is the HOS ( head of security ) at a medium, to large music venue. I hate violence. I hate dealing with people. But it is what I’m good at.
I am a SLED officer,which essentially makes me,or gives me the ‘power’ of LEO. I don’t carry cuffs, or weapons though. And those who are under my direction are held to the strictest standards, in regards to violence. My group is a flagship of our company, and how to act, or not to act. As I’ve said before, my men are told that violence is to be considered a failure on their, and my part.
I don’t have ,well carry, a badge, and I don’t usually arrest people, or treat people like shit. I’ve worked along side narcotics units before,and other divisions, but I am an anomaly in LE. I don’t consider myself part of ‘the current problem. ’
But I can’t say I’m not a hypocrite (at least sometimes, ) and I don’t enjoy my job. I try not to hurt anyone. I hate fighting. It’s just ,what I’m good at.
If I were smaller,I’d still be roofing. A hellish,and dangerous, but lucrative job. I did it when I was a lanky young man. I have a different body type now.
It ruins my night when I have to be mean to people, but sometimes it’s unavoidable.
Yes. I hurt people for money…. Sometimes…. It pays my bills though. Maybe l’m like a prostitute. I sell what I have…. My body type,and skills lends itself to my current profession.
If I could pay my bills working at a book store,I would.
I’m just trying to make it.
I’m sorry…