Not much. I like my womanhood. I can think of a few specific exceptions though.
When I had my colectomy, the surgeon warned me I was at extra risk due to being a woman. He removed my rectum, and its proximity to the vagina means that one of the “rare but serious complications” is rectovaginal fistula, which I ended up getting. I remember feeling slightly bitter that this process, which was already so difficult, was made more difficult due to my anatomy.
When I first decided to major in computer science, I was bitter at how many of the men in the program had had a relative or school counselor guide them into the field from a young age. How was I supposed to compete with men who had been programming since they were 9? I am mostly over it but on my insecure days I still feel like I won’t “make it” in the field because of my late start.
I don’t really have strong feelings one way or the other about kids, at least not yet, but my boyfriend wants kids, and I want to be with my boyfriend, so I’m working to accept and process the idea of being a mother. Luckily it’s not something he wants to have happen any time soon, because it’s daunting. My one hard rule, and he knows this, is I refuse to be pregnant. I don’t think I’d survive it. So it just kind of sucks that I’m the one in this couple that has the ability to become pregnant. If I were the dude everything would be fine because his health is good. As it is, we’re going to have to do something complicated like adopt or have a surrogate.
Furthermore, I really hope that it won’t be expected that I drop my career for parenthood. We’ve only talked briefly about this since it’s still so early, but we both agree that kids deserve a parent at home. I’m open to it if we have a discussion and it turns out to be the rational thing for our family, but I don’t want to be expected to do it just because I’m the woman. At this point in my life I’m very happy to be working, and I want to continue having a career.
As for sex, man, it sure doesn’t feel like a huge perk that it’s typically easier for me as a woman to “get sex.” I barely even like sex. I could go for months at a time without sex and wouldn’t miss it. I’m not saying this is in any way typical of women (I’m pretty sure I’m nearly asexual), but I think it’s less abnormal than it would be if I were a man. I’m glad I don’t have a constant need for sex; I like my independence, so having a “need” that requires another person to fulfill seems really trying. On the other hand, being somebody who dates men means that I have been expected to do the sex thing at times when I really didn’t want to do the sex thing, and that is also a shitty position to be put into.
Another part of my independent streak means that I walk around the city a lot to get to where I need to be because I don’t like relying on people giving me rides. That too would be safer/easier if I were a man. I get tired of constantly questioning whether I’m an idiot for walking home around sundown. There are many small things like that.
That’s all that comes to mind right now.