How do I let good the past and live the future?

Nightshade, you really need to check in to your local hospital. If you have gone this far, you’re in a very dangerous state of mind. The very best thing you can do for yourself is take it out of your hands, and put yourself in the care of professionals. I want you to know that I’ve been where you are, and it will get better, I promise. I know it doesn’t seem like it right now, but life is never static, it always changes…and if you’re at the bottom, it can only go up. Medication and the right therapist will make a world of difference. Please get help immediately…and let me know how you’re doing, ok?

thank you really my name is brandon what is yours

Brandon, I prefer not to post my name on the internet, but you can call me August. What has happened to make you feel suicidal? Also, how old are you? Do you live with anyone who can help you?

dear augest
I want to be come good friends with you cause for me I am still discovering this world that we live in and every thing that I see I look at it a much differing way than most people do if you have an email well I’ll give you mine their are not very many people that help you out like tlyiu do thank you

Brando

Hi Zack.

@PupnTaco: Are you serious? Have I been had?!?

Smells like it to me, but what do I know?

Well, if you’re not sure, perhaps better to be safe than sorry, given the nature of this question.

You need to get some counseling. Call a hot-line now. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.

You can get help letting the past go: I did, my parents, both alcoholics divorced when I was 8. My mom spiraled into heroin addiction. I was kidnapped and raped by her boyfriend when I was 9. I went to school one day at 10 1/2 and came home and she was gone. I was taken away. I never saw her again. From there I went from foster home to foster home.

But you know what? I love life today. My past isn’t who I am. I live right now at this moment in the moment. As dark as it may seem for you—you can make it better. Get some help with it. Please.

Typical trolling…

where do I find help I’m going insane with rage I grind my teeth

Not sure what state you are in——but here is a list of 24 hour hotlines, listed by state. By the way, I called them about 3 years ago. I had a trigger that brought up my childhood rape. I called and got the name of a psychologist who specialized in Adults who were abused as kids…wow, what a source of information she was! I was so glad I called.

http://mentalhealth.samhsa.gov/hotlines/state.asp

Oh…..ok….oops, got your answer machine…

troll.

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Even if it turns out that this thread is getting trolled, may I say how impressed I am by everyone’s serious responses and concern for an anonymous user. This, in my opinion, demonstrates how effective Fluther is at really helping people with their questions, as opposed to some other sites out there that seem to mock and deride what people submit.