^They started me(xanax), on a fairly large dosage. I usually never took the full.dose though. If I felt an attack coming on, I would start with a quarter of a tablet (the mgs, I don’t recall,) and would take another quarter about 30–45 minutes apart, until the attack stopped. But like I said, I did get “high,” from it (in large enough doses,) and was only on it for a few months, before seeking an alternative.
I would sometimes go days, or more, without taking any at all. Same with the lorazepam, that I replaced it with. The lorazepam took longer to act, but lasted longer, and didn’t give me a sense of euphoria. I’m currently prescribed diazepam, 5–10 mgs 4 times, a day (I’m sure my size has a lot to do with the dosage recommended.) Don’t worry. I think that’s way too much, and typically just take 5 mgs, when I wake up. Occasionally, 5 mgs more before bed. I have not noticed any euphoria, and have had a noticeable drop off in attacks. I barely drink anymore, and typically go weeks, or months without drinking at all. Mixing benzos, with pretty much anything else, is something that I avoid.
I have researched the drugs thoroughly, and am aware they are potentially addictive, and of the withdrawal issues. I typically just carry a couple pills, in case of emergency. I’ve had 3 attacks, over 5 years, that landed me in the ER. So valium, is the lesser of the multiple evils…
@KNOWITALL . I have seen WAY too many horror stories, regarding anti-depressants. Remember that I have no insurance either, so I can’t afford even the cheapest ones, and I am also concerned that the price could raise dramatically, if the pharmaceutical companies decide to, on a whim. Which would mean that I would have to come off of them completely. I’ve heard terrible stories, about how that goes… I have been constantly trying to find alternatives, that don’t involve any drugs at all. Everything from meditation, to thousands of years old breathing techniques. Unfortunately, I have not had even remote success, with anything I have come across. Especially if an attack starts.
The main variable, is stress. Although, I do have problems with lots of flashing lights, and/or loud environments. Which made working at nightclubs, and music venues a real challenge.
I don’t take hot showers (research has shown that they can lead to temporarily high bloodpressure, which can exacerbate the problem,) and listen to calming music on the way to work. That seems to help. Some.
Thereis a direct correlation, between how stressful my life is, and the frequency of my attacks. I have recently started a new job. That plus the valium has resulted in actually having not had a bad attack since. Plus, I’m finally coming to terms with the loss of Wanda. I’m not over it. But I’m making progress…
I was in a counseling group, for about 6 months (3 x a week,) for people dealing with heavy loses. I don’t know that they helped much, but I’ve been working hard, to improve my coping skills.
I was insured under the ACA. If it wasn’t for some political issues we’ve ALL covered here, I would consider the SSRIs. Some changes weremade in my state, so I lost that, and as we know if Trump/the GOP get their way, it’ll be gone for good. So. No reason to get started on a SSRI, when it could become unobtainable.
Right now, the ER is my only real source of medical care. I do have a primary care physician, but can only afford to see him once, or twice a year. There are state run clinics, and such, but I fail to meet the stipulations, either because I make just a little too much,or oddly too little money in some cases. My republican controlled state refuses medicaid help, so that’s off the table too.
I’m just making do, with what I have available. Right now, that’s all I can do…......