When caring for my infants, I was in every possible state:
- exhausted, not exhausted
– anxious, not anxious
– happy, extremely unhappy
– focused, unfocused
– healthy, violently ill
And there were times when:
- I had a drink or two of alcohol, didn’t drink alcohol
– I consumed healthy food, consumed unhealthy food
During these years, I also:
- had healthy family interactions, had unhealthy family interactions
– exercised daily, did not exercise daily
– had no financial troubles, had huge financial troubles
etc.
I guess what I’m trying to say is that when raising a child of any age, you’re doing so while fully human. Life doesn’t stop, nor should it. There are people who look at raising children in a clinical way, as though you can scientifically break down the exact steps to perfectly raise a child. And more importantly, this view turns into a vehicle for judging those who choose to raise a child differently.
Mistakes happen to everyone. People have moments throughout their day where they exercise various levels of caution and living. To assign a particular recipe to parenting and judge those who have been victims of accident or circumstance is pretty messed up. I’m not willing to make a statement about the exact amount of alcohol a parent consumes that would make a tragedy a criminal offense or even something we should judge.
I made all kinds of decisions and choices when raising my three kids that others would find objectionable (two kids were born at home, we co-slept with all of them, we carried our children, practiced attachment and trust, “free range” when older, etc). Some of my friends considered us a bit “hippie”, but I didn’t give a shit.
So, how much alcohol is too much? I don’t know and I don’t care, just like I don’t care to make a judgment about how little sleep is too little for someone to be caring for a child, or how unhealthy or “overweight” they are, or if they are in a pleasant mood, or they get enough sunlight or if they are prone to anxiety or if they have ADHD or if they have a cold. Parenting is a human activity, and there is no way to parent without experiencing all that makes up being a human.