Is it a good thing or a fault to try too hard?

I am undecided. Should I keep fighting to be a psychologist, or should I enjoy life, and play it by ear?

I am close to resolving my grief from failing out of university in 2000. Sometimes I revert to different stages of grief

I would like to enjoy life. Napping at will and grazing healthy snacks all day.

It still seems a financial burden to go back to university at this time. I might pay off my bills and save money, and maybe take one class at a time (around $5,00—$1,000 a class.)

My idea is to take Free French language lessons on the internet, and paying off my credit card and other bills. Then deciding then.