Does anyone else notice an overriding, or at least parallel theme? @raum articulates this perfectly.
The moments when things are the simplest… If I’m not mistaken…
Life is so chaotic.
Our senses are constantly bombarded. We must negotiate the incoming intake of data, to function. So many tactful, meticulous chores of necessity are made difficult by the environment in which we have to exist.
I wonder. Are any of us, other than just me, prisoners of attention problems?
For me. Just trying to listen to a person talk in a quiet room, is a challenge. I am so distracted by the voices in other rooms. Conspiring to what end?
The sound of a small piece of paper thrashing like barbed wire on sheet metal, as it responds to the air currents.
The contours of the ground. Differences in the concrete are vast canyons, and tire tracks.
The fine hairs on my body, are sending me information about temperature, and directions of air.
My olfactory sensors are sifting through a gill net of degrees of pungent, aromatic, delightful, and offensive odors.
My tongue, ever busy, sending me reports of debris, or slight changes in my teeth or gums.
Or. Constantly kneading chewing gum, and reshaping it.
Still tasting the copper from when I brushed my teeth hours ago, resulting in a miniscule bleed.
My eyes constantly measuring distances, and monitoring peripheral movements. Pleased, or upset with the brightness in the room.
And my fucking brain. Playing a song I heard two weeks ago, that’s suddenly interesting. Wondering about what that person meant, when we were talking the other day.
An now. This person looking at me. Lips moving. Eyes searching mine. Making words that are intended to translate thoughts to me. Seeking something. An answer to a question. An opinion. Information…
How dare they join the army of various things currently assaulting my mind?
Acting like this isn’t just insane. Acting like time isn’t ticking away. Finite, and in unknown amount.
Acting like one of us couldn’t just drop dead, at any moment. And then what?....
My definition of having a sense of well being, is when I am so distracted by my current circumstances, that I can appreciate the little things.
Mindfulness…
Mindfulness is not so easy. With a mind already so full, it’s overflowing…