Would you personally view the body of a loved one before they are cremated?

She did not even want a viewing. My dad chose to for closure considering how him and I both saw her last.

My mind replays over and over again walking into her room, touching her leg, my dad yelling.

I cannot unsee her laying in her bed. I want to see her looking peaceful and sleeping.

But. I went through her instagram today, and I looked at her drivers license photo (no one has photos of her, she never let anyone take any). I feel a bit better. Like I was so so overwhelmed with sadness its like I forgot who she was for a moment. But seeing that, I am questioning if seeing her in person will mess me up more.

I am working on a therapist for real this time. I was going to call today but slept way too long. It is a priority but also I have been exhausted.

I AM NOT MAKING MY CHOICE BASED ON ANY ANSWERS HERE. Just asking for different thoughts. My mind kind of is not functioning.