How do I forgive and love myself?

…when I’ve never really known how to and can’t remember ever doing so…

well that’s not true…there was probably a couple of times (of a period of about two months…)

but how do you stop being angry with yourself for the stupid things you’ve done and said and felt and acted…

and just connect with the love…?

I don’t know…any ideas, practical suggestions, books, mental advice all welcome x