There is an ongoing debate about the difference between feelings induced by hormones, infatuation and love. What I’m going to talk about is “falling in love.”
When I fell in love (and I’ve done it a number of times), it started with mutual admiration. More than that, mutual interest and appreciation of each other. You find yourself wanting to spend more time with the person. You enjoy their company so much that you try to be with them as much as you can, and when you’re not with them, you think about them.
They seem perfect to you. Everything they say; everything they do; just seems profoundly moving. You can’t imagine ever doing anything without this person. You feel a glow when in their presence. You want to touch them and they want to touch you, and feel you everywhere and press you tight. Because, after a while, you can’t stand being two different people, and you want to merge your bodies into one. Of course, making love is the closest you can get to that.
Before I ever fell in love the first time… and it was reciprocated, I imagined that making love would be a transcendent experience where you not only merged your bodies, but you merged your consciousnesses. You could think the other person’s thoughts.
Lovemaking is the logical result of loving someone (who isn’t already your relative). It’s the only way to express these feelings so the other person has to totally get it. Lovemaking gives you both such a joy. It feels so good, but not just physically—also emotionally.
Building on this, you continue to spend time together. This is where it starts to get tough. Will your good feelings for the other person stand the test of time? Or will you find out more about them and discover they aren’t as perfect as you thought. This is where relationship skills start to become more important. You need to be able to solve problems together (i.e., deal with your fights). You have to be able to feel sure about the other person’s affections. This belief can be challenged by so many things that we see on fluther: flirting, lap dances, other lovers, and more.
If you navigate those shoals without sinking then you can start to believe that your love has legs. Your love deepens because you have experience with the person. You continue to enjoy each other. When you make love, it is such a creative act in a metaphorical sense. It also can be a creative act in reality—creating new life. Making a baby can seem like the perfect expression of love.
In my life, I have found many women who I admire greatly. I could fall in love over and over again, I believe. My life is full with the love of my wife and my children. It is hard for me, emotionally speaking, to understand why there can only be one love at a time. I understand it intellectually, but, right or wrong, I feel like I have enough love for many. It makes me think ‘isn’t life strange?’