Could you live like this?

I have fallen out with my father, I don’t just mean we have a had a disagreement, I mean properly gone our seperate ways maybe. We have always had a weird relationship, but he is my dad and I love him dearly.

Before Christmas my dad attacked my boyfriend and things were said, it broke my heart. The more I have thought about the whole situation the more hurt and angry I have become. I have tried to speak to him, but he has never said sorry, for what he did or for how he made me feel.

I text him a few days ago and basically said I was fed up with things and I’m tired of making conversation and it going no where. I haven’t heard from him since.

What upsets me is how do I cope when something happens to him, knowing we no longer have a relationship?