What Do I Do If I Can't Tell Or Trust Anyone? (Long Whiny Story)

The longer you go without sleep the more paranoid you’re going to get. You have to dig deep and find the courage you need to tell your doctor. If you tell them now, you may get the help you need before you wind up detained again. Proactive. You’re going get to be more involved in your own care if you show some initiative and take control. Tell your doctor what’s up. If you don’t tell and things continue to spiral out of control they are going to put a check mark next to poor decision making abilities.

It is in your best interest to have these issues dealt with professionally. If the choice is between you coming forward now to get help, or having it forced upon you later under worse circumstances, then I would certainly advocate that you be proactive and report the issue to your Doctor yourself.

What they ^^^^ said. Find someone in your real life who can help you (maybe a parent?) and possibly go to the doctor with you.

You do not need to be ashamed about this. Mental illness is real and treatable. By all means talk to professionals and get the help you need. You don’t have to suffer. Treating yourself is not helping you and may exacerbate your symptoms. Be brave and let people know.

Were you ever exposed to this rhyme or child’‘s prayer
Now I lay me down to sleep
I pray the Lord my soul to keep
And If I die before I wake
I pray the Lord my soul to take.

If I awake and see the light
‘tis God who kept me through the night
I lift my hands and humbly pray
That he will keep me through the day

This thing on a Victorian print in my childhood bedroon may not be the only reason I am an insomniac, but it is one of them. If I stay awake late, I want to see dawn before I sleep.

@Breakdown First, welcome to fluther. You’ll fit right in here.

In your case, it’s justifiable and you should seek councelling. We’ve all gotten it.

I would strongly urge you to speak to your doctor about your symptoms. You have nothing to be ashamed of, and no reason not to trust your doctor to act in your best interests, as they are there to help you access treatments that will relieve the unpleasant symptoms you describe. Please believe me when I say that there are effective treatments for the disorders you describe, and people can and do get better.

I can understand your anxieties and fears about being detained if you make your doctor aware of your symptoms, but even if this did happen, despite the initial unpleasantness of the situation, things would be far more likely to improve in the long term. Carrying on living with the sorts of difficulties you describe may mean that you continue feeling unwell for a long time. Besides, the life you are living at the moment doesn’t sound like it is a very positive one for you, and so there is all the more reason to be active to do something to change that. By actively seeking help for your symptoms, I would imagine you would be far more likely to make a recovery, as well as improving your self-belief and confidence as a result of being brave enough to seek help in a difficult situation.

I wish you all the best.