@Seaofclouds I don’t even have a doctor lol. But yeah I thought about it a lot, I mean something needs to have happened for this to have..er, happened. However, both my parents were alcoholics, does this work in genetics? O_o
As for meetings and things, I might go, but if I were you I wouldn’t spend too much time looking for it, because I might not go, and I’m very capable of doing it myself. I know booze is ruining me slowly but surely, but I think my problem is motivation to do anything about it more than anything else. I suppose making this question is a small start though.
@hawaii_jake I’d love to hear your experience any time you might want to go into detail with it, if you have time sometime. (Through a PM or wtv.) Listening to other people can help a lot. (Maybe it helps the person talking, too?)
@SuperMouse Thanks for sharing anyways though. I’m curious though, if you wanna share, how did you start to fear for your sanity? (I know there are different forms of alcoholics, at least so it seems.)
@zenele That seemed pretty heartwarming to me. :) (And I’m not all drunk yet I swear. And I won’t say law..that word again.) But seriously, thanks. :)
@Arsiztid Yeah, I think I’m at that point. No matter how much I drink it doesn’t seem to do what it first did, but even that lack is still better than anything else, which is ass sad. XD I have no idea what I’m trying to escape, but if I have a survival instinct, it knows I’m escaping something and it ain’t happy about it. XD
@tinyfaery I don’t know. I don’t really feel that I want to do anything about it, or that doing anything about it is worth it. But since I made a question, and some people in my real life have noticed it and I didn’t try to hide it, maybe subconsciously or something I want to. Lol. XD At least some of this has to mean something. Or at least I hope so anyways. XD
Thanks @Dr_Lawrence I hope you mean it, because I might very well bother you about it. :D But no, I really appreciate it, not tryna be funny. :)
@anartist I don’t quite get it…can you please elaborate?
@truecomedian Thanks for the warning. I didn’t know any of this about the AA. Are they that religious? I’m not looking for things like that right now. :/
@unused_bagels Thanks. Some people in real life know too, my two best friends and..uh…my boos at work. Lmao. XD But I never mentioned any of this to them, they just found out (And evade the subject.) so maybe I’m getting too much credit. XD I usually drink on my own at home, but things get out, and now I have a roommate so it makes it all worse.
@gemiwing I think you’re right, all this is going to be quite some ordeal. I think my main problem is deciding whether I care or not. Of course I’m not asking any of you to care for me, but if I have to question myself on whether or not I care, it does get scary…sometimes. But thanks, I love your answer. :)
@liminal I was drunk when I made this question, and I’m getting there yet again. I would have never wrote this while sober. I can’t seem to call up the courage to do so, even online.
When I remmebered this morning that I wrote this, I was like, OMFG. You people give me too much credit, but I appreciate it.
Anyways thanks yall. I’ll be honest with you, every night when I got to bed all messed up I sincerely hope that I’ll die and won’t wake up ever haha, so I probably won’t take any of your advice or listen to you. I know it’s worth listening to, very much so, but somehow I know I won’t. But this wanting to die shit is bullshit, deep inside I mean, because I figure if I really wanted to I wouldn’t be saying it to anyone, right? Or not? I denno. XD
On the other hand I’m surprised by how positive everything in here was, and I swear I’m not doing this for attention or any bullshit like that, but it does help a bit, maybe a lot in the long run?
But it just feels nice to puke it all out, whether it makes any sense or not.