Yes, I have had some close calls. On various occasions, actually.
For instance: once we were sitting on a 2-meter-at-the-tallest island (Caye Caulker, Belize) when a category five hurricane came from the north and miraculously moved its eye right above us, stayed there for over 4 hours and then graciously went back, over the same path that it had come. That grace saved us from the four meter storm surge on the Northern side of the storm. In the prelude, we had two days of hiding in our make shift shelter and waiting for that surge to come and likely to drown. Gladly enough, however, we survived.
It didn’t imapct me as much. Sure I now have fear of hurricanes, but the impact was by far not so startling and live changing, as when I was confronted with the mortality of my children.
When my wife was pregnant for 25 weeks, we (she) had our first sonogram. It was then that we found out that we were going to have twins. Startled initially, I told the doctor after five minutes, that it actually seemed a very attractive idea. The doctor’s response was that he wasn’t as happy as I was and that he feared that they were going to die, since he suspected them of having Twin-to-twin-Transfusion-Syndrom (TTTS).
Weeks 26 through 32 of my wife’s pregnancy were hell for us. It made me realize that I had become more vulnerable than I had ever been to the fear of death. (Everybody that knows a bit about me, knows that all turned out well and that I have a set of two dapper young lads.)
In anyway, ever since, I still get startled when one my kids almost kills himself crossing the street, or falling from the top bed, or choking on a ‘pepernoot’. It is part of life, I know, but fear of death for me primarily is by proxy for the fear of my children’s lives.
Good thing they proof pretty indestructible, so far..