Let me preface my post by saying I have no true horror stories. While I have more than my fair share of complaints about the school district I attended growing up, I believe it is safe to say that I turned out to be a relatively intelligent and respectable human being (though it is debatable how much of that can be attributed to the instructors and administrators.) I have heard true nightmarish stories. A teacher from my high school was arrested for possessing an unloaded gun in his classroom (we rejoiced because he hit on his female students for years.) I’ve had friends who attended schools with coaches who were arrested for alleged rape (the matter was settled in court and, yes, he was convicted of not only raping one girl, but molesting several others.) When I put my experience into this context, I feel as though I have little right to complain.
I’m still going to complain.
In seventh grade, my English teacher hated me. I’m not exaggerating nor do I know what caused her to develop these sentiments. Perhaps she caught on that I clearly disliked how she taught the course. It was terrible. I was, according to my other teachers, a model student. Good grades, well-behaved, a bit too reserved but always on top of my work. I never got in trouble. One day, I was talking with the people on my table (the one time I do this, mind you) and she told me to stay after class.
She took her glasses off, blinked slowly, and said, “Are you giving me an attitude?” WTF? “No, ma’am.” She puts her glasses back on, excruciatingly slowly. “You may leave.”
My eighth grade English teacher, who was genuinely kind, told me that becoming a novelist would be a waste of time and I should look into doing something else because “you’re just so intelligent.” Thanks for fostering my dreams.
I wrote about this elsewhere recently: my vile U.S. History teacher had us watch the documentary 9/11 and when it reached the scene where they mention the jumpers, he kept replaying the scene. Over and over and over and over again. It made me sick. I was beyond ecstatic when he transferred out of the school (for unrelated reasons.) He is, quite possibly, the worst teacher I ever had. He was also incredibly prejudiced against gays and lesbians. My friends assure me this wasn’t the case, but I disagree
During the same year, my chemistry teacher implied that I was a less intelligent individual because I wrote on my arm. I had written a memorial line for a friend who had passed away. I mentally checked out of his class for the remainder of the semester and nearly failed as a result.
The sheer number of teachers who watched me crying my eyes out without so much as quietly asking me what was on my mind disturbs me. And more than one told me that I needed to stop.
The majority of my primary school teachers did not understand what type of learner I was and, unknowingly, scarred me in a variety of ways. I do not think they were poor teachers because of this, but I wish they had been more sympathetic to who l was instead of trying to change me.